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| Hey Everybody! Wow I have been SUPER busy!! Apparently, since I haven't even written a new entry in like over 2 months. So much has changed! I'm still not back at church....which I'm not so proud of...but things will get better with that. I am soo not dating that guy anymore. I am actually engaged now to a guy that's just so amazing and awesome and sweet and loving and just everything. I mean...yeah hes not perfect..but who is? Everyone's gotta have their bad side! I mean we haven't been together too long, but I just know it's right and it's totally what I want. I wouldn't have it any other way. He's totally perfect for me. We're getting married on May 13, 2006. So it's kinda a little ways away. He's 25. His name is Darrell. Yeah I know, he's kinda older. But I like older guys...they're so much more mature...plus they've pretty much lived their lives, so they know what they want. My mom kinda...flipped out when she found out..by accident. I was gonna tell her...later. Flipped out to put it mildly. But she's getting okay with it. I started school again. Which totally sucks. But it's alot easier this semester. Not as much homework..like less than half of what it was last semester. I only have two classes right now. So that makes it easier too. I am working so much. Like 6 to 2 everyday monday through friday. I just started getting weekends off which I totally love! Lately, like within the last....four days, I've been working 7 to 3 because..I have no car! It's broken! I ran it into a ditch with about 2 feet of water/ice/slush in it! So we had to get it towed home and it won't start! So I am going soo crazy. I can't see Darrell, I can't drive myself to work or school, or the mall! Oh wow! Amber is having her baby tomorrow! I can so not believe it. Anyways I cant think of anything else to say so I will look at everyone's things and leave. Love ya guys!
Love,
Amanda | | |
| Hey everybody! I havent gotten on here cuz Ive been scared that my computer will quit working again! But it seems to be okay! But right now I am so happy and so excited and so...just really happy for the first time in like forever. Since I quit talkin to Karl actually. I went on a date tonight with an amazing guy. He's 18...hes awesome. Awesome and amazing are the only two words I can really use to describe him. Usually I have this guy I think is awesome and theres always that one thing wrong with him thats major...drinking, smoking, kids, been to jail, drugs, or he hates God. This guy goes to Anderson University, doesnt drink, doesnt smoke, doesnt have kids, hasnt been to jail, and he LOVES God! We talked about that alot tonight. My life is really workin out for me! I'm dating an amazing guy and I have a job! A good, stable one too and Mcdonalds! And I love the people I work with. And I have amazing freinds! Right now Im not going to church and I miss it so much, but itll be okay for a little bit. Im planning on going back, to all of those who are interested, this month. Anyways I will talk to everyone later and give you updates! Love ya!
Love,
Amanda
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| Hey everybody! Once again, Ive been tryin to get on here, but the internet is being GAY! Last night and tonight were absolutely TERRIBLE! Well last night was the first night of Haunted Lives. JAMES came! He was in the party scene. Well thats where I ended up bein put too, but last night wasnt soo bad cuz there were at least 3 people..4 in there that i actually talk to and arent stuck up and SNOBS! Well first...me and Amanda C. and James and Stephanie were in there....it was 705...710 well BEN I know..we knew it was him...was bein stupid and knocked over part of our section in the maze. Theres these wooden frame type things..with black plastic over them for the maze..he broke one. At first, Dan(the head of haunted lives) blamed ME AND AMANDA AND JAMES AND STEPHANIE for it. Me and James are trying to tell them the whole time it was Ben...meanwhile were gettin yelled at and gettin this HUGE lecture from Dan about how we shouldnt be messin around and we need to be careful and stay away from it. All the while, JAMES is fixing it, pretty much by himself. With Ben walking around throwing his hands up and saying he dont know who did it. Well then Ben came in our scene and said that he dont know who did it...he had a TINY TINY TINY cut on his head..about the size of the tip of a pen...and was babying it. And Mikey looked at Ben watching JAMES fix his mess and said Gosh Ben you look guilty why do you look like that? And of course..Ben throws his hands up and says who me? I dont know. Well...Ill tell ya more about this whole mess Ben did...later...which happend today. Well then last night...James took Stephanie's hair thing..not meaning anything mean by it...I mean its a hair thing. Well she got another one from Cindy...then he took it out too..not meaning nothin by it. Stephanie bein the baby she is, went and told Sis TJ. Well then she comes back saying..like a 3 year old might I add...James, Sis TJ said to give me my hair thing back. Well then, Cindy started YELLING at James to give it back cuz it wasnt Stephanies and it was hers. James gives it back and says CALMLY...gosh Cindy just cuz you and Chad are having a fight doesnt mean....and then Matt...a stupid idiot....went all off on James and yelled how she didnt want everyone to know and blah blah blah...well EVERYONE knew it anyways. And James this whole time is just calmly talkin and saying that. And then two older people from the next scene over came and said whos aruging and stuff. Since Cindy ran out...like a baby... people ran out after her...and so it was only me Matt, James, and another girl who didnt care. So I said it was nothing and noone was arguing..cuz they had stopped and I didnt want anyone to get in trouble. Well Matt started in on James again. James grabbed his stuff and left and said thats it Im going to a bar. I was so mad at Matt. I went outside and cried. Then I got myself together and went to the scene again...just as I had gotten back, Dan came in there and said I heard we have a problem..just then...the other Matt said the problem just left. And Dan said yeah I figured James would be a problem tonight...didnt even give him a chance. And James didnt even do anything..except take a hair thing. Heaven forbid he take a hair thing! Well then everyone was talkin bad about James and I had enough..so I left. I mean all night these people were talkin to James..bein his freind...then they turn their backs on him in a matter of two minutes...for Matt..who is a stupid idiot. Well thats like almost nothing compared to what happend today. I told Dan I was sorry about leaving early..he didnt even know I had..well...to make a long story short...I talked to him about what happend between Matt and James. He said that James was in the wrong because he was "horseplaying". All he did was take a hair thing! Well I told him that and was sticking up for James. Then later on we ended up on James again. He didnt understand why Im the only one sayin he wasnt a problem and he didnt understand why I was LYING about James and why I was stickin up for James til the death. He called me a liar...told me that JAMES...he KNEW James knocked over the thing that BEN knocked over..and that Im a liar. When James was standing next to me the WHOLE time. So needless to say Im not happy and after this thing is over with....I just might find me a new church..I dont need people telling ME Im a liar..when people who went against me are fakes...people who act like theyre in church but are actually druggies, alcholics, adicted to sex, porn, you name it. He put me at the same level of them. Anyways I gotta go. Love ya guys.
Love,
Amanda | | |
| Hey everybody! I have been trying to get on here for so long but my internet is being so stupid and it wont let me do anything for more than two minutes! I am feeling awesome right now! Sorta. I got to see Amber! Which was awesome, her shower was the best ever! I told her she needs to have a nursery shower, to give her an excuse to come up again! I miss her so much! Today, a lady at church, one of my good friends whos...older...like 29 but still older, well she told me something that meant the world to me. And it totally made my day. She is so awesome! At least I can help some people. I never knew what the worst feeling in the world was, not until tonight. I absoultely love to help people, its what I do. And theres some people I want to help more than others. But the worst feeling ever for me is, when the person I want to help most in this world, and I know that I could help them, wont let me. Wont even give me a chance, but has the nerve to tell me that theres two other people that CAN help him and get through to him. That totally killed me cuz I am trying so hard and this is so important to me. But Ill get over it, like I get over everything! God is soo good and he has been doing so much for me lately, I cant even begin to tell ya guys!
Love,
Amanda | | |
| Hey everybody! I hate learning things all over again!! I have learned that all guys are jerks about 500 times now. Cept for this time it hurts alot worse. I mean when someone tells you they LOVE you and then turn around and act...like not the same person. I hate giving people the benefit of the doubt and sticking up for them and all this other crap and they turn out just like you were scared they were gonna. In all my life...even when Derek broke up with me....Ive never been this hurt. Never. But eventually Ill meet another guy. Another guy whos gonna be absolutely wonderful and awesome. But then...he'll turn out......just like the rest. This always always always happens to me. And I just dont know why. I mean I try so hard and I know im not a bad person I know it. And I just try to be the nicest person I can be...but that gets me absolutely no where...cept for with old people which that dont help me any....well it does. Cuz if they dont like ya...all heck could break loose. But anyways. Maybe I just need ta change. I dont know but if I change maybe I wont trust people so much...Anyways...Im gonna go now. Talk to ya guys later.
Love,
Amanda | | |
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